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Friday, 30 January 2009 @ 8:34 pm
SOMEHOW OR ANOTHER,These days, I keep having second thoughts. Should I or Should I not. I don't know. Everything is messed up! First, I thought I made the right choice, but now, I seem to another side of my decision. There's seem to be enough for me in East Spring, but my happiness had never been there ALL the time. I feel like crying thinking back all WRONG doings I did. It was bad, but, it is me. I am that girl! Firstly, I had to apologize to my beloved friends in East Spring. Because of my stupid attitude I have in me, we had problem throughout our friendship. Like a girl gripped on branches of trees, feeling struggled. I have to admit, I LOVE YOU, but, I don't know what's with me. I'm having conflicts lately. I don't know if i should transfer or NOT! I need you to tell me. If it didn't even have ANY effect to YOU, means, I have failed to have what it takes to be your friend. like I always do Labels: lovingly lily INTENSIVE!
Saturday, 24 January 2009 @ 7:13 pm
musshy shush shash lah! My daily netball training is like so extreme! It is a MUST for us to run ten rounds my school corridor. It is like twice the netball court! Intensive man! Then, on last monday I didn't turn up. The junior girls said that they practiced jumping after that. Then on Wednesday, I turn up! So proud of myself! After the running on that day, we had to carry a 3KG medicine ball, CHEST OUT! Man, I think I'm building muscles. Let me highlight something, My ass, my shoulder, my neck, and my chest are like hurting, aching! Damn! I seriously got to go for a massage! OUCH! Labels: lovingly lily ily
@ 1:00 pm
I'll write it, and I'll write it BIG!I LOVE YOU, BOY! the truth is, im just waiting for your answer. I AM! well, I'm ready. To my fellow readers, this is nothing more than just official! ((: so don't ask me crapxs! cos' i'll ignore and not answer. get it? boo-yah! to the copycats out thr, pls dnt copy this! cos' i'll give you more stuff to copy. by then, you'll be like a dog barking for food! STUPID! urgh! Labels: lovingly lily ARGH!
Tuesday, 20 January 2009 @ 6:30 pm
Seriously, did you even think that worms can't grow in your body? i know right? Disgusting right, by the sound of it! Okay, here's some videos that I may vomit worms man! eeeeeeeeeee!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i1qnz4BJAAY http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GiHtUFuGgSA http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PFYdgXbCZoc http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zOIcRz4L1mc http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2PpwjbZzhtU http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6qHhjNcGhDQ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dO8e3yngOiE EEEEEW! right?! i noe! Labels: lovingly lily Nadhrah, I'm sorry.
Sunday, 18 January 2009 @ 2:44 pm
Sudah beberapa hari kami tidak sebut pepatah pun.aku sudah rasa hatiku ditikam oleh pisau. kepanasan dari arang dilempar dihatiku. sakit, pedih rasanya. aku merindui kisah kami bila kita bersama. aku mahu ikatan kita sama seperti dulu. Aku mencintai kamu sebagai kawan, lebih dari kawan, sebenarnya. seperti kawan rapat. apabila ku bertemu kamu pertama kali, ku bercakap dengan kamu seperti kita sudah bertemu beberapa tahun. aku mahu kamu bersamaku di sisiku sekali lagi. Lebih-labih lagi, kamu lah kawan pertamaku yang aku tahu di sekolah menengahku. Minta maafkan aku, Nadhrah... ((: aku betul-betul menyesal. Labels: lovingly lily morning, sun rose!
@ 11:16 am
THIS MORNING
Watched Rachael Ray, starring Michael Buble. He was so funny! while stirring the pasta, he chanted some italian phrases. I can't stop myself from laughing! lawl! Then, about 9.30 watched 'The American Mall', super NICE! Better than the friggyn High School Musical or Camp Rock! weeeeeeeeee! they rock to the core! Anyway, here's some of the video(songs) from 'The American Mall' trust me, the song is way better! weeeeeeeeeee! Labels: lovingly lily swallow your words
Saturday, 17 January 2009 @ 5:14 pm
If you love me, then, thank you! If you hate me, then, fcuk you! Seriously, I don't need your consent if I want to do stuff that are not allowed in your principle. Seriously, you're Pathetic get you own life! cos' I got mine! && you could be my follower, ask permits first, fcuker! pissed off! crack your own bones if you don't know who I am talking about. If you're reading, I hope you realize, that the fact that, I'm talking about you. SHUT UP! & LISTEN UP! It is you who is ruled over, cos' you can't stand up for yourself! hush! that's the most pathetic thing I could ever cried for. getting high for no reason is YOU! getting offended because you thought I'm talking bout' you, that's bullshit, crap, just like you. ban me? spam me? more than welcomed! so long, fcuker! Labels: lovingly lily rocky edges of life.
Friday, 16 January 2009 @ 8:14 pm
Could a simple living friend be hard to survive? No! Seriously, everything is fcucked up! It's a fact that your writings are all lies, but has ever any truth came out of those lies? Seriously, a blank piece of paper can make it up of thousand words, but can a simple girl have a thousand friends? I seriously don't know. Maybe friends, but not true friends nor bestfriends. Seriously, this won;t chage anything, but it could only change one thing, that is my satisfaction. Every human has their own satisfactions, but am I satisfied now? The truth is, I am. I am truly satisfied and there's no doubt of that. Why you may ask? I have lost friends. I have lost my face. I have lost my precious bestfriends. & I have lost a heart. I've been heartless, living a life 'wilder' than an animal, i would say. It changed alot. More than I could even imagine. Had me feeling this regret. Regret of being an heartless person. I LOVE YOU, but that love will never work. WILL NEVER. I had survived from servere hatred before. & I don't want to go through it anymore. I can't take it no more. Labels: lovingly lily fyi, i was bored.
Wednesday, 14 January 2009 @ 4:18 pm
I snap my fingers as time passes by in seconds.Time was out of reach. Love was out of sight. I, am confused. Follow the heart or follow the instincts? I've been following my instincts, & look at me now? If I followed my heart, would I be somewhere better than where I am now? I just wonder. My life, is full wonders. But, let the past remain the past, the remains, we should bury it away from our thoughts. Like what, one of my closest friend, Sarah said, 'let bygones be bygones'. Those words, are NOT the words we should release from our mind. It's meaningful, thoughtful... "how much time, before it's too much time?" that's a question that I find, rather a good one. Labels: lovingly lily I make the cut peeps!
Tuesday, 13 January 2009 @ 9:08 pm
Today,13/01/09 I make the cut peeps. Today was super fun, rather shocked! I got into the netball team! I don't know why, but I'm feeling quite desperate to get into my school netball team, before the selection. Seriously, I doubted myself of not going into the team. It was a rather tough job, making the captain having to actually see me. I was so elated! This is the first time, I'm feeling this way, as I used to despise NETBALL alot! But, who cares? Now, things changes. I'm proud of myself for the first time. WEIRD, right? hehe. I know, I know, I use to say, netballers are ROUGH people man, but, now, I learn that, never judge a CCA without looking through the background, 'Don't judge a book with its cover'. Coach was so strict! " If i see you going out with boys, or go arcade, or even go out with your friends, I'll punish you until you touch every bit of my hell". I was so shocked! But, I have to get use to it though. ((: stop here, for now, because I have assignments to do. loveyaaloadstothecore! Labels: lovingly lily ESSS!
Sunday, 11 January 2009 @ 7:11 pm
I LOVE ESSS! Labels: lovingly lily Guy best-friends lurh. Nothing more, babe!
@ 6:45 pm
OI! kayy2, i duno wat to write lehs. hmmm. anw, this message is to Sarah, all these post, I seriously no talking about you. I explained to you already. ((: so, chill. So, I have a story to tell about my personality. Seriously, I think I can make friends with a snap, no matter where I go. I'M SERIOUS. Now, my life, is so called 'complete', as, I have best-friends that is so much alike with my best-friends in Primary School life. They rock to the core. Now, the only thing that is missing is, a guy best friends. Throughout these six years in primary school life, I had several guy best friends. They were cool, I would say. They were there whenever I need them. I have listed some of those guys. & i would like to thank them sincerely, for that special relationship. Those people are, Saravanan, Ardian, Danish and some others. That I'm not sure, if we are guaranteed best-friends, though. hehe. But to those who I didn't state their name on this post, ring me, as well as tag me. I would definitely add you in. ((: So, today, I have decided to have my vision straight to a point that, I really want THESE boys to continue being my best-friends, and some add-on. 1.Saravanan 2.Ardian 3.Danish 4.Fadhli 5.Ahmad 6.Romeo 7.Mikhail ( though I no longer contact him, but... NVM... ) 8. Kamal 9. Firdaus ( Yes you! Mairah's cousin) 10.Hakiem 11.Haziq 12.Faisal 13.Nasri 14.Ali It is not a miss. I really really want you guys to be my guy best-friends. But, I hope you girls can do the same as what I'm doing now. And, my intention is good though. I'm not trying to find Mr.Right, for now. But, alternatively, some of you guys, won't be reading these, so, maybe I would be asking you personally or what so ever. And, YOU CAN'T BE SHY AT ANY CIRCUMATANCES! ((: Labels: lovingly lily make up smeared eyes
Wednesday, 7 January 2009 @ 9:33 pm
Make Up Smeared Eyes - Automatic Loveletter owh ya! AUTOMATIC LOVELETTER, ROCKS LIKE HELL! THE SINGER'S VOICE LIKE PARAMORE LEAD SINGER LEH! HEAR THIS SONG! super damn nice leh! love it to the core. xoxo, sherfeerawr, your babe across the town. ((: chill hor! Labels: lovingly lily @ 9:26 pm
I PEOPLE WHO KEEPS UPDATING! SPECIAL YOU! ILURPEYOU LIKE SLURPEE! ((: NIWAE, I LOVE MY FRIENDS! WAIT, BESTFRIENDS WANNABE! JUST WAIT A WEEK OR TWO, && YOU'LL OFFICIALLY BE ONE! PATIENCE! MY PRIMARY BESTFRIENDS+SISTAS! YOU'RE THE FIRST PRIORITY THOUGH, FOR NOW, KAE? I STILL HAVE TO COPE ON MY STUDIES TOO! && MY NEW BESTFRIENDS! LOVE YOU PPL, TO THE CORE! MY OFFICIALLY NEW BESTIES AT ESSS ARE, NADHRAH, AUDI NURAINI&&ELYANA. I DNT REALLY KNOW HOW TO SPELL YOUR NAME, BUT SOON, I WILL. I WILL CONFIRM REGARD YOU AS ONE KIND OF SPECIAL PEOPLE! ily! TEEHEE! Labels: lovingly lily Monday, 5 January 2009 @ 9:03 pm
hmmm.today. 050109 to much zero for this instance. heheh. HEY HEY HEY! SHERFEERAWR, here! yay! Anyway, today, had a inter class competition. we played captains' ball. fun! OWH YA! YOU PEOPLE! YOU BELIEVE IT! I got chosen as a SCIENCE representative! in other words, I am a Science monitress. something like that lah. Funny or wat, ar? I SUCK AT SCIENCE LEH! I was assigned by the science teacher, with this guy, name Mikhail. He is, ok2 lah. not gonna talk about it any further. because it is WEIRD! damn! i am starting to talk like CHINESE! wow! i rock. OWH YA! OWH YA! OWH YA! OWH YA! There is this guy, he is a student leader, SUPER HOT LEH. Labels: lovingly lily Sunday, 4 January 2009 @ 7:14 pm
shut the crap up, screw up.Seriously, you people should find&get your own originality. it is SO wrong if you just copy people. REALLY, piss me off! go&find a life lah! copying without any permission is WRONG! There's a girl, who doesn't use her own inciative to ask, now, I REALLY HATE HER, TO THE CORE! Labels: lovingly lily @ 7:09 pm
HE'S A BIG SHOW OFF! & SHE'S A BIG COPYCAT! what more could a couple like you, ask for? Labels: lovingly lily siao ting tong!
Friday, 2 January 2009 @ 9:51 pm
OH YA! got this guy, another guy. he went to lead my class for the school tour. super funny, listening to him talk. haha. lols! "k, class, this is the NCCDC room, aaaah, only for the for people who joins NCCDC ah, can enter ar. like passport ar." i was like, what is this guy saying? like passport ar? siao or wat? like passport ar? like passport ar? damn! i can get it off my head! hehe. lols! siao sia this guy! Labels: lovingly lily @ 4:05 pm
WAIT! ESSS ROCKS! IT HAS INDOOR SPORTS HALL. IN THE PROCESS OF BUILDING IT. SUPERB HUGE! YEA! WEEE! YEA, BEYBEH! Labels: lovingly lily LOVE IS WHAT?
Thursday, 1 January 2009 @ 11:22 pm
01/01/0911.22pm words will remain words, un-change. wait about feelings? change-able. from hatred to like then love after that forever. forever? what's forever? it's meaningless. what's love? untold. what's like? a passive word, to me. hatred? will never end. some things, are remain untold. there's ways to act it out. but there's no way to describe it. life is complicated. but not as complicated as falling in love. I'll cry, if i, if i continue typing. but crying is like your heart squeezed, resulting tears coming out from our eyes, trickling down our face. if i could, i would make a song. but my mind is in blank. as i type the words out of my mouth, tears trickle down my cheeks, like raindrops from the sky. i looked out & look into the sky. looking at the bright moon across the horizon. it wasn't bright enough for others at the western side to see. bit by bit, clouds started to fog the face of the moon. It was as if the clouds gave me answers that, no one knows. NO ONE... as time travels, fast, i told myself that i could not waste any more precious time. it is US, who makes that difference, NO one else. I type I LOVE YOU, but is there any active, strong meaning to it? Labels: lovingly lily 01/01/2009. A BIG DEAL TO ME!
@ 10:32 pm
Today, nothing much.01/01/09 so today, 2009. at last. not a good thing though. the past two years, is when i enjoyed myself. MOST. thanks to my fellow friends. We may have conflicts, but it is about time that we call it experience right ? through the clouds, of fogging air. i couldn't see anything. But i could feel something. i could hear something. i could feel your breath. i could feel you. i could feel, how is it to be without a friend. i could hear your voice in my head. i could hear my heart pacing an additional beat. you were my friends. I mean you ARE my friends. present tense. maybe, more than just best friends. i love you. whatever i said, that is hurtful. is just some NONSENCE spouting out. I'm sorry, and i am. today, another a year. another chapter. I'll miss you and I indeed will. you were something in my life. but will you continue being something meaningful in me? my answer to you is yes. how grateful i am to have friends like you. how grateful i am to have a 'thing' with you. I feel like the most luckiest girl alive. i have friends and that's all i want. all i need. nothing else. just you. just friends. looking through my past, it's isn't something i would say that is easy to forget. it was never easy. I'm a girl, with alot of thing to write about. a girl, who keeps in mind with people who she loves. This is something I'm proud of though. but i have to be strong. i have to be confident. i have to look ahead. i have to create my future. you girls out there, never ever give up! never give in! be strong! you have to be confident in yourself! you have to! to guys out there, there's not much for me to say. just, remember that girls are not your first priority, alright? NO MATTER IF YOU'RE A BOY OR A GIRL, NOTE THIS. I LOVE YOU GUYS! I will always be there if you need me. i will. i keep to my words. if i can;t, I WILL TRY. if i got no time, I'll make time. just for you. just for you guys. to arinah, i'm sorry i made you cry. i hope it is tears of joy. to mairah. sorry, i made you emotional. it wasn't my intention. it was NEVER! Labels: lovingly lily
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